Author: Moon at West Mei
Woman: Are you okay now? I've been waiting for you here for three days.
Man: The sunlight spills through the curtains onto my sickbed. I love the sunlight, and even more, I love the warm feeling of sunlight enveloping my body and mind. Perhaps today or in the next second will be the end of my life, so I want to forever imprint you and today's sunlight in my eyes, carving it deep into my heart.
Woman: Many times, you would suddenly appear in front of me, smiling at me in the sunlight. How I long for you to suddenly appear in front of me now, but where are you?
Man: Ever since my diagnosis report came out, I have never felt this desperate inside. It's not the despair of my life being so short, but the despair that I can no longer be by your side at all times.
Woman: I remember I once asked you how long you could wait for me. You told me, even if it’s a lifetime, it’s fine.
Man: Yes, as long as you let me wait, no matter how long, I will wait a lifetime. I want you to know that there is eternal love in this world.
Woman: Now I also want to tell you, I can wait for you a lifetime too. I have come to believe that there is eternal love in this world, and I want you to believe it too. For you, I would rather die than give you up.
Man: When I was first diagnosed, I told you it was a misdiagnosis. Holding back my reluctance and sorrow, I still wore a bright smile in front of you, but when I turned around, it was a torrent of tears...
Woman: We are destined to be together forever, so if your wings are broken, then it must be us who falls from the sky. We cannot live together, but we can die together. You have given me so much joy; I cannot let you walk alone in loneliness.
Man: I am afraid you will know about my condition, and I do not want you to bear the weight of life with me, so I must disappear, must leave, to a place where you cannot find me, waiting for the end of life.
Woman: I have known you for two years, but the time we have truly spent together is only ten times. I counted carefully with my fingers, only ten times. The first time was when you helped me defeat those little bullies. You told me that poverty and suffering can shape a person, and hope is always in front of us. From then on, you opened a window for me to see life.
Man: How many times have I secretly hidden in the dark, watching you, watching your lonely figure and sorrowful face, silently crying with you? How I wish, how I wish I could rush out regardless of everything, run to you, and hold you tightly in my arms.
Woman: The last time was when I learned you had a terminal illness, and I wanted to be with you, but you left my future intact. You gave me so many precious things, but I haven't had the chance to give you anything yet. How could I bear to let you walk alone...
Man: Jing Qiu, I cannot be so selfish. There are many meaningful things in life waiting for you to do, many ideals waiting for you to realize. I believe you will have a beautiful future. How I wish I could create and embrace that future with you, but I can no longer fulfill this wish. I'm sorry, Jing Qiu, I can only ask you to live well for me, to strive on.
Woman: Now, I understand everything. You once made such a difficult decision, going through such a painful time. During the days when you suddenly disappeared, in the days when I silently hated you and constantly cursed you, in the days when you bore the pain and all misunderstandings alone, you never left me, never left. You poured out all your life, watching me in your unique way, accompanying me...
Man: Jing Qiu, did you hear my cries in my heart? Did you feel my embrace in my heart? Jing Qiu, we once embraced passionately in our hearts across the river, and now, the river that separates us is one of life and death.
Woman: If you see this letter I wrote to you, please write back to me quickly. If I never receive your reply, then I will know you have gone. I will definitely come to find you. I remember the scar on your arm, and you remember the wisdom beans in my hair. We will not miss each other...
Man: When I saw your letter, knowing you wanted to leave with me, my tears have not stopped. I am waiting for you, Jing Qiu...
Woman: It seems that in life, it is destined for me to miss you. When I finally found out your whereabouts, it was already at the brink of your life...
Man: Jing Qiu, I have been reluctant to leave. I want to see you one last time. I am waiting for you, I am waiting for you, Jing Qiu. Hurry, I am so tired, so tired. I can hardly hold on...
Woman: When I saw you on the sickbed, what a sight it was, pale and dark all over... I trembled as I walked towards you, towards the longing I had never let go of for even a moment. Just a few steps, just those few short steps, seemed to take a lifetime...
Man: I see you, I see you—Jing Qiu. But I no longer have the strength to give you a smile, nor the strength to call your name again...
Woman: I am Jing Qiu, I am Jing Qiu... Look, I am wearing the red dress you like, like hawthorn flowers, to see you... Wake up, look at me... Didn't you say that as soon as you hear my name, even if one foot is already in the grave, you would pull it back to look at me? I am Jing Qiu, Jing Qiu...
Man: Don't cry... Jing Qiu, I saw you crying in my dreams, crying so sadly. My heart hurts so much, so much... Jing Qiu, promise me, you must live well, promise me...
Woman: I promise you, I promise you... I know that everything you do and your deepest wish is to let me live well.
Man: Jing Qiu, Jing Qiu... Can you hear me calling you in my heart? I want you to live well, to live for both of us, to help me live. I will see this world through your eyes, feel this world through your heart. I will always watch over you from heaven, never to sleep.
Woman: You must also promise me, you cannot, and must not leave me alone to walk by myself, okay? Please hold my hand tightly, in the realm of life and death, we will not get lost, we will not be separated...
Man: Jing Qiu, how I wish to wait for you to grow old, with wrinkles all over your face, and still be by your side, to slowly grow old with my beloved. How happy that would be...
Woman: Looking at you, who has finally gathered your gaze again, on the ceiling, there is actually a photo of you and me, the only one. Why, why is heaven so cruel, forcing you and me apart? If, if I could return to the moment we met, I would not let happiness slip by again. If, if in the next life we could hold hands, I would be willing to use my life to commemorate our love under the hawthorn tree.
Man: I am willing to die in your eyes, and then live forever in your life. I want to be buried under the hawthorn tree. I love the flowers it blooms, the fruits it bears, and even more because under the hawthorn tree are the most beautiful memories and fragrant love you gave me.
Woman: Thank you for walking into my life that year and that month, forging eternity for my love. I know that in the season when the hawthorn tree blooms, at the end of time, you will wait for me, singing, smiling, waiting for me.
Man: I cannot wait for you for a year and a month, nor can I wait for you until you are twenty-five, but I will wait for you a lifetime.
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